Ending start.

My friend you left me in the end
I can't believe I'm writing a song
Where friend rhymes with end
But today
I must cave in
I have trouble forgetting those beautiful eyes
As it is
I must fill your space with lies

Friend
You left me in the end
I guess I knew it all along
I guess I expected this song
And it is as it appeared
Like a fist in my stomach and
Swallowing tears
Your song turned out a sad one
Just as I feared

[Ane Brun - Where Friend Rhymes With End]

Friends come and go, that's life but sometimes the circumstances make for harder times.

Period.

"You know I can't remember the last time we kissed
'Cause you never think the last time will be the last time
You always think there'll be more
You think you have forever but you don't"

[Meredith Grey in Grey's Anatomy (S02E17)]

I love that line. Not only because it's from one of the best TV shows but also because it's so very true. How can you memorize a kiss, a hug, a conversation, a phonecall, a chat as being the last one when you believe there'll be many more of them as it occurs? Unless you know you're leaving to never return, you can't. So you're left with a blurry memory to hold on to and probably regrets of not hanging onto everything closer back then. But no matter how often you'll have to go through it, you'll never learn. Because it's not all so sane to live thinking it's the end by every second. So you will always live in the idea of tomorrow will come again, all the same but sometimes it doesn't.

And you'll never be the exact same again.

Rain to wash away the pain

As I was walking my dog tonight, it started raining. The sound of the drops on the canvas of my umbrella brought back memories from a summer rain event many months ago. It reminded me of how I didn't have to lie to reply to "how are you?".

The picture is from the movie V For Vendetta, one of the best movies of the last 2 years. It's about freedom and that's what I'd like to regain now. Freedom. From an overwhelming job, too much stress, no one to hang out with, no time to actually do it, from all the resentment, too. As V has been the one man with the idea to lead many people to change, I'm somehow waiting for some idea to be exposed to me so that things can evolve. Time will tell, eventually.

Just a side note : If you haven't seen the movie yet, you're missing out.

:)

S.: "Goodmorning, M."
me: "Hello! But wait, what are you doing here on a Monday?"
S.: "I was asked to come since the change may happen today after all. And I thought it's ok because at least I'm going to see you."

That actually seemed sincere and felt warm. My personal highlight of the day.

Such a flirt.