can you buy happiness?

"You shouldn't have started working in your early twenties. You should have kept on studying. You were such a fast learner, you could have a way better position than you do."

How not feel like a failure when you're being told that? Actually, I didn't feel bad. There's truth in the fact that I could have a way better position with more years of studies, but I don't think my actual job is bad. I like this job, a lot. So what's more important? Earn a lot with a job you may not feel all fine with or have a job that sure pays less but makes you feel useful, for some reason? I'd go for the second one.

People always had big plans for my future carreer. My parents, or my mum specifically, though I suspect my dad to care more in his silence; my sister, who guided me through every school changes; my teachers, who'd fight over what way I should take : science or letters? I chose science, because that's what I liked the most. Now I wonder what it had been like if I had chosen languages or something along this line.

I would be somewhere totally else in my life, I guess. Would it be necessarily better, though? I like my life as it is now (for the most parts), so why think about a hypothetical dream life that actually would not fit the dream image? I'll stick to working this life I got out. Taking the best out of it, walking through the harsh times with my head up high in the end, stronger than ever before, accept the nice opportunities I'm given, simply try to actually live.

I don't have regrets for my past choices, they made me the person I am today. And you know what? I believe I'm a good person in this twisted world. I'll keep my strength focused on getting even better, not on becoming someone else other people would want me to be. You can voice your opinions about my words or deeds but don't try to handle me. I have free will and I'm going to use it.

[quote: my grandma / image: google search]