Changes.

"Colors change and people change
And I'm busy handling the remote..."

[Sarah Bettens - Don't Let Me Drag You Down]

Sometimes you make friends with the most unexpected people, the least expected way. Sometimes you dislike the person at first but get closer to them some day because something in the air changed. On the other hand, the opposite also happens, you feel like you've met someone who could be one of your best friends ever and one fine day everything vanishes for some reason. They just walk away.

So you're left with your interrogations, your guilt - eventhough deep inside you're not responsible for whatever pushed them away - your will to understand, the void that appeared in your life and in yourself. But maybe there's nothing to understand, no answers to your questions and nothing that will ever fill this void. All that's left are the memories. You try to keep the sweet ones alive in your head, though it may hurt when you think about it all over again. And then you happen to even think it'd be easier if you could forget about everything, but life is about joys and pains, you need both to enjoy the positive side of things.

Then you look around you and see other familiar faces. Despite your moods or anything that may have happened, they're there for you. Of course no one can replace one another but it's comforting. You know these ones won't let you down, and that's the best thought/feeling in the world. You wish you knew how to show your gratitude but there's no way to express it to its right level, so you just don't say anything as of now but will tell the right words when they happen to come to mind.

"You jumped in a cab and left me standing still on the sidewalk
Familiar faces came around to walk me back home..."

[myself - random line that popped up in my head in the middle of another sleepless night]